"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit." Aristotle

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Port is Out

My surgery went well this morning and my port is out. The surgery took a whole 9 minutes including prep time. It was interesting how it went. They brought me directly from the main lobby into the operating room. I took off my shirt, put on a hair net and got on the operating table with no special gown. They did cover me up in all kinds of blankets and had a special screen over my head so I couldn’t see what was happening. The doc came in, poked, cut and sewed, and I was done in a few minutes. I could feel a sharp pinch from the needle going into my skin when the doc was sewing me up. I told them that after I was done and they said I should have said something early and they would have numbed me up better. Man, sometimes trying to be a tough guy just doesn’t pay off. It feels great to touch my chest and not feel a hard foreign object poking out.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Back to Running

Just this last Monday I finally started running again. I’ve started out with short 3.2 mile runs each morning. The early mornings in Minnesota are now really cold and dark. Yesterday it was 25 degrees when I ran. I have good gear for running in weather like this, so I don’t cold. It’s just a psychological battle to get out of bed early in the morning when it’s cold and dark. That’s the hardest part. After a cup of stiff coffee and donning my running gear it’s easy to get out the door and run.

My running plans have changed. I won’t be running marathons for awhile. Chemotherapy and two marathons in one year were pretty hard on my body and it needs some time to rejuvenate. So I’m going to keep the distances and races no longer than a half marathon. I’ll probably run mostly 5Ks (3.1 miles) and 10Ks (6.2 miles) races. There are 5 and 10K organized races happening all the time and they usually involve some type of fund raising for charity. For training I’m going to focus on building up my speed rather than distance. I also plan to make my training more balanced by doing other exercises like weight lifting, biking and maybe swimming. I’m even toying with the idea of doing a triathlon. A neighbor lady who was an avid runner got into triathlons and she said the more balanced training actually improved her running. Another reason for more balanced conditioning is it better prepares me for other activities I like to do, like snowboarding, backpacking, kayaking and canoeing. So that’s my plans, now it time to execute. Like getting up out of bed on a cold dark morning, the hardest part will be to get started.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Squeaky Clean PET Scan

Today my oncologist went over the results of my PET scan that was done Wednesday. It showed absolutely nothing, it was squeaky clean. My oncologist was so impressed with my progress I get to have my port-a-cath removed next week. The port-a-cath is a catheter that has been surgically implanted in my chest to allow chemo drugs to have direct access to my heart. Every month I have to go to the cancer center to have the port flushed out. Having it removed means less trips to the cancer center. As much as I love the people there, I prefer to be somewhere else. My PET scans and oncologist visits are now going to be 3 months apart rather than 2. About a week before each scan I get a little anxiety. Having that less often will also be nice.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Scanxiety Time

It took about 5 days after the marathon before I could walk normal. Normally I would start running again, but I have a PET scan next week and I don’t want a repeat of what happen in July when my PET scan showed a flare up, which was later determine to be most likely inflammation of scar tissue due to running Grandma’s marathon. I don’t want to go through scanxiety again (neither does my wife) so this time I’m not running at all until after my PET scan.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Success is never wondering, “What if?”

Sunday morning was cool and dark at 7AM when about 17,000 runners gathered around the HHH Metrodome in downtown Minneapolis. About 6,000 runners were about to start the TC 10 mile run, while the other 11,000 tried to stay warm in the cold wind. Runners were wearing all sorts of things, trash bags as ponchos and old worn out sock as gloves, all which would be discarded along the race course after burning a few hundred calories. Then there was the forecast – rain, very possibly heavy rain, maybe even a thunderstorm. It may sound like the worst conditions for a marathon, but for me it was near perfect, much better than high temperatures and humidity. If you grow up, live, and run in Minnesota, you become accustom to the cold. This was a Minnesotan’s day to run a marathon; the only possible improvement would be a few snow flakes.

All my three previous marathons have been in the heat, so this was new to me. I have done a 23 mile practice run in the coolness and know that my long distance performance greatly improves when the mercury dips into the 50s or lower. Waiting at the starting line with my wife just on the other side of the corral fence I made my decision, “I’m going for it” I told her, “I’m going for under 4 hours”. I knew my performance would be much better than my summer long runs because of the coolness, I just didn’t know if my legs would hold up since my summer training was a bit sporadic. The one thing I didn’t want to happen is play it safe and then for the rest of my life wonder if I could have done it. I had to try.

The 8AM start of the marathon was fairly dry, but that didn’t last very long. For about the first 15 miles or so it rained, sometimes very hard. At times gusting wind would blow rain and leaves into my face. Some of the streets became flooded and at some parts of the course policemen were diverting runners to the high side of the road. I loved it and so did other runners around me. Unlike heat which drains your energy, the rain and wind seem to elevate our spirits. Spectators were cheering on the runners, some runners were cheering on the spectators while some were cheering on the rain.

During the first half of the race the numbers of spectators were thinner than past years, but I was surprised on how many did show considering how hard the rain was pouring. There were large groups at key locations, probably where parking can be found. I think the weather weeded out the causal spectator, because the ones that did show up were there to cheer on the runners with exuberance. Even though I decided to try for a finish under 4 hours, I did remain true to my main objective - to engage the crowd.

At last year’s TC marathon I also learned that sometimes it takes a runner to get the crowd going, which in turn gets the runners going. It’s a symbiotic relationship - runners inspire spectators and spectators motivate runners. Runners also inspire and motivate other runners. It’s so unlike other sports where there is an opponent that needs to be crushed. That’s what I love about marathons. There is so much positive energy flowing all directions and negativity is no where to be found. For this race time I wanted to put everything into Chemo-Man.

After the first couple of miles of being reserved and quiet, I came up to a large group at an intersection and I finally let it all hang out at the top of my voice yelling, “It feels great to be alive and running!” That generated a big response of applause and yells like, “way to go Chemo-Man”. This would happen again and again for the next 20 miles. It wasn’t just the spectators getting into Chemo-Man; I received countless sincere nods, pats on the back, and clenching fist taps from fellow runners too.

A runner understands another runner. They know what it means to be able to run, and what it would be like to loose it. So when a runner sees another runner overcoming great adversity to stay in the race, they are inspired. That’s another wonderful thing about marathons, there inspiration everywhere. Many runners at Sunday’s race had to overcome some type of hardship or misfortune. You see it written on their shirts. They are running in honor someone they lost, or close friend that is struggling with a crippling disease. Then there is the old farts – runners in the 70 to 74 age bracket, or the over 74 bracket. Near the end of the race I saw one 70-74 pass me up, probably on his way to break 4 hours. Did that bother me? No, it was pure inspiration.

My pace for the first 20 miles was much faster than what I trained for this summer. Last year for the TC marathon I was in my best shape and trained at a speed to finish under 4 hours. However last year I started to succumb to the heat around mile 17 and didn’t reach mile 20 at a good enough time to complete the last 6.2 miles with a reasonable pace. This year I hit mile 20 in full stride and with a time of 2:57. To finish under 4 hours chip time all I would have to do is complete the last 6.2 miles with an easy pace just over 10 minutes per mile. But then my legs and right foot said, “NO MORE” and I started to feel a bit dizzy. For much of the remaining 6 miles I had to alternate between walking and running to stave off the feeling of dizziness and pain in my legs and foot. I did save enough energy to complete the last half mile at a good running pace. I didn’t finish under 4 hours, my chip time was 4:18, about one minute faster than my time at Grandma’s marathon, but I was still very happy with my performance. The important thing is I tried and I will not be haunted by the question, “what if?”

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Way Cool Online Runner Tracker

Click on the above title of this post to go to a way cool online tracker for TC marathon runners. You will get an interactive map (looks like Google maps) that allows you to grab the map to move it and zoom in and out. It shows runner’s progress and estimated position. The link already has my bib number included. Just in case that doesn’t work, go to http://www.mtcmarathon.org/ click on the Mtrack link in the middle of the page. My bib number is 6103. Besides the start and finish, there will be timing mats that register my chip at the 3.1, 6.2, 13.1, 18.6 mile and an additional spot. I don’t why they don't pick the additional spot right away. Maybe someone like my wife is in charge; put it there, no move it over there, no, I think it would be better over here.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Good to Go

It’s the day before the Twin City Marathon and I’m good to go. My taper down period the last two weeks have gone well, with no hint of an injury. I don’t have any specific plans for the race on Sunday. Due to tendonitis at the worst possible time, my training this time lacked continuity so I don’t know how I’ll perform tomorrow. Another variable that has added some unpredictability is the weather. The temperatures will be in the low 50’s during the race, which is perfect for running. Temperature can have a huge impact on performance and all my marathons so far have been on the warm side to killer heat. Most of my training this summer has also been in the heat. Do I set a pace to break 4 hours, or do I play it conservative so that I don’t risk a poor and painful finish?

Two Sunday’s ago was probably my most physically challenging day ever. I ran 20 miles in the morning, and then spent 5 hours cloths shopping with my wife at the Mall of America. Can you imagine what it is like standing on your feet for 5 hours straight while trying to help a woman decide on what shoes to buy, after running 20 miles! I am now definitely ready for any abuse that the TC marathon can throw at me.

My performance on last Sunday’s 20 mile run was pretty ugly. After about 15 miles there was three different times that I pulled out my cell phone and was about to call my wife to pick me up. My legs and hips started to hurt more than usual and the run became just pure drudgery. I didn’t prepare very well, I started late and it got warmer than usual, and I started focusing on the finish. I think I’ve push my body to its limit this year by training for two marathons. Oh yeah, there’s also that chemotherapy thing earlier this year. To complete the 20 miles required a change in head strategy. I shifted my focus away from the finish to some landmark along the trail that was close enough in distance that seemed both physically and mentally doable, then made a deal with myself that when I arrived at the landmark if I absolutely couldn’t go on I would end the run. The cell phone never came out again and I finished. I’m glad I pushed myself to complete the entire 20 miles. It was a bit of a gamble with possible injury, but as a result I am better prepared for the TC marathon.

For Grandma’s marathon I monitored my heart rate and adjusted my speed to keep my heart rate at an optimum. I’ll probably do the same this time, but not as closely. I plan to be much more involved with the crowd this time. Both Grandma’s and the TC marathons have wonderful spectators that cheer runners on, but the TC marathon has more of them and some of them get really crazy with costumes and music and dancing and giving runners high fives with gorilla hands or monster hands or spraying runners with water. There are rock ‘n’ roll bands, um-pa-pa bands, choirs and soloists playing all types of instruments and music. It’s like running through a big party that is 26 miles long. My plan – enjoy the party.