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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

BWCA Photos

I went a bit crazy with posting 42 BWCA photos, but I had over 400 to choose from. Before going on I need to put this BWCA thing into context. Besides Grandma’s marathon, looking forward to a family adventure in the BWCA was instrumental in fighting off depression and despair during the time I didn’t know if I would be physically capable of such a thing, or worse yet, alive. It would have been easy to temporarily give up future dreams and concentrate on the task of fighting cancer and preparing my family for the worse. However I found that the best thing for me and my family was not to push future plans aside, but rather embrace them. My brother Cary stepped in by proposing a BWCA adventure.

Cary and I have done many adventures together, sometimes with our brother Mark and sometimes with other family members. In the last few years our adventuring has gone mostly to the wayside; life was way too busy. Then aggressive cancer threatened to swiftly take my life. That was a wakeup call to refocus on the truly important things. I wasn’t the only one to get this wakeup call, others close to me also benefited from my cancer. Yes, you heard it right - benefited. As horrible and ugly cancer is, there are also a lot of positive things that can be harvested from it. Cary and I are now planning other adventures, such as a backpacking trip into the Crazy Mountains and a sea kayaking trip from the Minnesota north shore of Lake Superior out to Isle Royal, an island in Lake Superior that is a national park and a primitive wilderness area.

On our BWCA adventure we canoed over 24 miles of water and portaged more than 4.5 miles in six days and five nights. My brother Cary and his wife Pat, being pros at this thing, could have covered at least twice that distance in the same time, but my wife Renee, my sons Chris and Daniel, and I are rookies and thus set the pace. Trying to cover as much distance as possible wasn’t on our docket anyways. Thanks to Cary and Pat we learned how to do things efficiently and comfortably. We saw other groups that were obviously rookies with no clue. The right methods can make the difference between flirting with disaster, misery and pain and having a fulfilling and enjoyable time. Besides, it just feels good to do things the right way. As you can see from the following photos, we had a wonderful time.



Preparing dinner at the Sawbill campground the night before our adventure.

Day 1: Cary and Pat find a quiet nook out of the wind while waiting for the rest of us to catch up on Sawbill Lake.


Renee and Chris unloading at our first portage at the northern end of Sawbill lake.



Daniel digs in with a paddle on Ada Creek. During this stretch we had to drag the canoes over a beaver dam.





Renee and Chris bring up the rear on Ada Creek. If you try to step out on the grass you'll find yourself sinking into waist high muck.




For the first day Cary and Pat take the lead, but after us rookies learned a few things, they let us lead the way for most of the trip. I think this is Ada Lake.







Daniel and I unloading the canoe to prepare for a 180 rod portage. This was an easy landing. For some landings I would have been over my head in water if on the outer side of the canoe.







I think this is Cherokee Creek. I need to find a way to take notes along with pictures. I could record some voice memos on my camera if it wasn't inside an underwater housing. Since canoes are very prone to flipping, you don't want to take out an expensive camera while on the water. To safely get pictures on the water I put my camera in an underwater housing that is normally used for scuba diving.


Still on Cherokee Creek. Much of our water travel was not on big lakes but rather streams, small and narrow lakes. The forest here is very dense with brush and small pine trees. The only way to travel any significant distance in this land is by canoe.




Campfire at our first campsite on Cherokee Lake.










My youngest son Daniel (13) slept by himself in a hammock tent. Canoes are stored well within the confines of trees. My brother Cary learned not to store canoes on the lake shore where winds from storms can carry them away.





Day 2: Having breakfast in camp was also an important social time.











Pat grew up exploring the BWCA. Her family started as rookies but honed their skills over decades of practice. They made their own equipment and even their own canoes. Pat's family introduce the BWCA to Cary, who then added his own touch to methods and style. Cary has even done some solo trips into the BWCA.

Making Jiffy Pop popcorn at our second campsite on Cherokee lake. We decided to make day two a short travel day to spend more time playing in camp. This camp we found was a beaut, a rare find in the BWCA. This campsite was the only one on a big island at the northern end of Cherokee Lake.





Day 3: Sunrise on Cherokee lake. I tried to get up early enough each morning to catch the sunrise. This morning the sunrise was glorious. This day we planned to hang around camp or do a day trip and return.





Making bacon for breakfast.













Daniel and I found a nice rock to jump from into the lake. Here we are swimming back from the rock to our campsite.









Cary and Pat did a day trip to Frost Lake and my family stayed more local. After swimming, fishing and catching leaches on our island, the four of us jumped into a canoe and crossed the bay to a beach. Here Chris is doing his favorite thing - fishing.




Daniel and I like to make sandcastles.












Yours truly relaxing in nature's recliner.












Chris watches the sunset at a vista on top of a huge, granite outcropping near our campsite.










Day 4: Renee and I enjoy the sunrise with tea and coffee. Today will be a big day because we'll start on a loop to return to the Sawbill entry point. Our goal is to make it all the way to Brule Lake. At some point we'll be committed to finish the loop. Little did we know that some very difficult portages were ahead.


It's not the rocks you see that are the problem, it's the submerged ones you don't see that can ruin your day. Kevlar canoes are great because they are lightweight, making portages bearable and moving quickly on water. But they don't like contact with rocks. A punctured canoe can result in a really bad day, especially when you are two days away from any help.
Chris and Renee clear the rocks just fine. Chris steered from the stern for the entire trip.









Pat takes a break. Cary and Pat have Duluth packs, which are specifically designed for traveling by canoe and portaging. Duluth packs are shorter and wider than backpacks. Duluth packs and portage packs are optimized for canoes by keeping the weight low to maximize stability. Something you appreciate when the wind is strong and the waves are high.

Daniel took this picture of me carrying a canoe on a rocky portage. This is actually an easy one. During this day we picked our way through a couple of portages with relentless difficult terrain of steep climbs, slippery moss covered rocks, boulders, tree roots and knee deep muck. Care and absolute focus had to be put into every single step. A wrong step could lead to a serious injury.


Renee prepares for another rocky portage.











Cary and I prepare dinner at our campsite on Brule Lake. It felt good to find a vacant campsite after a long hard day of portaging. Cary and I each had a backpacking style camp stove. A canoe is turned upside down to serve as a table for preparing food and washing dishes.




Day 5: Cary and Pat are making pancakes for breakfast and I'm baking a strawberry muffin mix in a backpacking oven.









Checkout the strawberry muffins. Mmmm good. Some of the food wasn't that tasty, but when your hungry enough you'll eat anything. Everything from the backpacking oven was great, that is once I learned how to bake without burning the food to a crisp.



Renee and I washing dishes.













Chris packing his cloths into a waterproof compression bag. By pulling on straps attached to the compression bag, cloths and sleeping bags are squeezed into a much smaller size, resulting in fewer portage packs.






Renee checks our next move on the map.












Lilly pads that covered many of the small lakes were in bloom.










Day 6: Yesterday was a long and hard day with two monster portages, long stretches of water, at late camp setup, and dinner in the dark after waiting out a storm. We were very lucky to find this vacant campsite on Burnt Lake. Here Renee and I are planning out our last day to the Sawbill entry point. The winds are strong and the waves are challenging so careful planning is prudent.

Every campsite in the BWCA has a throne which is placed a little hike away from the campsite.










Cary and Daniel discuss things at breakfast. A lot of bonding happens over the course of a few days with no TVs, cell phones and video games.








Chris on our final portage to Sawbill Lake.












Renee still has a smile after six days of adventure. That's my girl.











Cary carries a 40lb canoe and a 50lb portage pack at the same time. This method eliminates double portaging which can take a lot more time and limits how deep one can travel into the BWCA.






A rest stop at the end of our last portage on Sawbill Lake. The winds are very strong here and some of us are a bit nervous about canoeing on the lake.








We make it back to Sawbill Outfitters with no mishaps. Our adventure is over, but the experience will continue to influence us for a lifetime.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Chemo-Man Survives the BWCA

My family and I are back from the Boundary Waters Canoe Area Wilderness and I’m happy to report we all survived. However, I did injure my leg and probably won’t be running for at least a couple of days. While swimming in Cherokee Lake I smashed my shin on a rock. That may have started the injury. Then later a strong pain started to develop and strengthen during portages, where I carried both a canoe and portage pack over some very rough terrain. I think the injury is a muscle or tendon in the shin area. I’ll try icing it and babying it for a couple of days. Hopefully it will heal fast so I can get back on my training schedule.

My family and I had the most wonderful time in the BWCA. I wouldn’t describe it as a vacation, but rather an adventure. It’s very hard work and there are elements of danger. It requires careful decision making and problem solving to stay out of trouble. The portages through the dense forest are not marked, thus finding them requires some detective work. Then you have to figure out the safest way to approach the portage, make your landing, get out of the canoe and unload. You don’t want to ram a Kevlar canoe into the shore; otherwise a sharp rock could puncture it. So landings involve getting as close as possible then stepping out into the lake. But watch out! You could sink into bottomless muck, or slip on a slanted rock, off a ledge and into an Abyss. Some portage landings have deep drop offs with only a narrow slanted, slippery slimly green shelf to step on.

On the second to the last day we did a monster 240 rod portage among other portages. Then latter in the day we couldn’t find an open campsite on our destination lake. (You can only camp at designated campsites in the BWCA). So we had to soldier on to the next lake which required trudging through another 230 rod portage. If we didn’t find a campsite on the next lake, then we would have to continue on another portage and another lake to keep looking. The problem was we getting close to the Sawbill entry point, which means easy access to the neighboring campsites and thus high chances of no vacancies. We were running out of daylight and energy. We finally found an open campsite and it was perfect. We quickly setup camp because there were sounds of thunder and it was getting dark. We started making dinner in the dark, but a storm hit with rain and heavy winds (no lighting) so we threw everything under a canoe and took refuge under some pine trees. We were so lucky we were at a camp on not on a lake when the storm hit. On the last day we encountered very strong winds that made it challenging to cross the lake without being flipped over. Everybody managed to stay dry.

We had three canoes, one for my brother and his wife, one for my oldest son (16) and my wife, and one for my youngest son (13) and me. I let my boys and wife do much of the navigation and decision making. Actually, they just did it because they knew that dad is not always right. Everyone carried heavy packs and did their part. An adventure like this is really a growth experience in many ways. I could see confidence build in my boys as they tackled challenges. The experience also brings us much closer together and will last a life time.

Expect some pictures in a few days.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

BWCA

I’m taking my family to the Minnesota Boundary Waters Canoe Area (BWCA) next week. The BWCA is about 1.3 million acres of wilderness that is set aside to protect its primitive character. There are about 15 hiking trails and about 2000 designated campsites. Most of the campsites can only be reached by canoe. During the six days in the wilderness we’ll traverse dozens of lakes connected by portage trails. I’ve been to the BWCA three times, twice in the winter traveling by snowshoe and once in the summer with my oldest brother. My brother and his wife will be going with us, which is good because they are seasoned BWCA experts. Well I better get out the door to do my run; it’s getting to be kind of a late start.

Friday, August 15, 2008

Time to Party

I met with my oncologist today to discuss my recent PET scan results. The up-tick in activity that was seen a month ago is diminishing. Both my radiologist and oncologist agree that the scan is picking up inflammation of the scar tissue left over from my hernia surgery, and running Grandma’s marathon aggravated it. The PET scan also shows I’m squeaky clean everywhere else. Tomorrow I’m going to celebrate with a 20 mile run. Hmmm, maybe I need to re-evaluate what I consider fun.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

TC Marathon Training

My training for the Twin Cities marathon started out sporadic. There was the 4th of July holiday with a big party at our house that required a lot of preparation, then a week long business trip to Phoenix, which as very hot for running. I’m also trying not to let my training impact family life. My plan was to run only on week days. Since I’m still a working stiff, I need to start very early in the morning, 5:30AM for my short runs and 4:00 to 4:30 AM for my long runs. I haven’t been able to exactly stick to that plan. So far my long runs have been on the weekends, but I do get started very early to finish before the rest of my family is ready for breakfast. This week I have a PET scan to see if the positive results from the previous scan was just a false alarm or not. I’ll have to take a break from running for a couple of days because I cannot do anything strenuous 24 hours before the PET scan. I plan to celebrate a good PET scan result with a 20 mile run Saturday morning.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Chemo-Man Runs Again

I’ve taken some time off from my blog and I’m now ready to get back to it. This spring when my oncologist informed me I was cancer free I was eager to get my life back to normal, and I thought that partially meant to put the whole Chemo-Man and blogging thing behind me. However I have come to realize that is impossible and would be a bad move.

I am haunted by the fear of a reoccurrence of cancer every time I have a PET scan and go over the results with my doctor. My last PET scan in July showed an increase in metabolic activity in the lymph nodes in my groin. I’ve learned that this happens frequently and most of the time turns out to be a false alarm. The PET scan cannot tell the difference between cancer and inflamed tissue. It’s common among runners to have inflamed groin lymph nodes and I had just run a marathon one and a half weeks before my PET scan. I have another PET scan scheduled in August to see if anything has changed. If that PET scan shows more positive results, then I’ll have a biopsy. It may go that far just to find out it’s nothing. Based on what I have been told, these false alarms could happen again and again over the next few years while I’m being monitored very closely. So I still have in front of me a tremendous challenge of fighting the physiological haunting of my cancer.

If I let myself dwell in fear and grief, then cancer will have won. I will not give in. I will not let cancer take precious time away from me and my family. However, I can’t walk away from it, I need to take it head on and fight it. Chemo-man is about being positive and pursuing dreams despite the challenges. Writing my blog makes me feel good. It’s like being in a support group. It’s also a way for me to pay it forward. During my despair just after being diagnosed I stumbled across stories of people battling cancer with running and positive attitude. They showed me that I didn’t have to give up my life and my dreams during or after chemo therapy. My hope is my blog will do the same. If I can help just one person it will be all worth it.
There may be a time when Chemo-Man retires, but for now I have still a lot to say. My journey continues on in a new direction. I don’t know exactly where, but that’s a wonderful thing about life, it’s full of mystery.